Dear Reader,
Eight years ago the skies over my house went beautifully silent; only bird wings split the air. Eight years ago I brought a bag of snacks to Boulder Bonfils Blood Center, combined them with grocery carts full of already donated juice, crackers, cookies, and bottled water. A line of whispery calm blood donors wound around the block. Eight years ago I raised my first American flag, phoned my love to my brother Steve, a WI fire fighter, paced with unhelpfulness. My need to do something led me to start to write:
Half Mast
9/11/01
for fire, its appetite only paralleled by man
for men and women crushed by duty
for the lone shoe on the sidewalk
for evil and blind allegiance
for fatherless children waiting
for agony only known
in a flicker before death
Half mast
for casual goodbyes
for those never said
for “I love you” over a phone
for the millions who scream “no!”
for pink innocence turned to ash
for a vase of flowers left on a desk
for mothers stopped from bearing life
Half mast
for tears
for horror
for compassion
Half mast
for blood pulled from volunteers’ veins
for a stranger’s body another’s shield
for prayers unanswered
for twisted reason
for empty graves
for food on firefighters’ lips
for the badge on a dead officer’s chest
Half mast
for struggling pilots
for fighting passengers
for irony
for un-reached destinations
for fear crawling through sleep
for shovels, cranes, pails, hands
for souls deserving peace
for dying alone
for unheard hearts
Half mast
for dust
for steel
for cement
for flesh
for love
for black
for light
Half mast
for burning candles
for loved ones’ paper smiles
for corpses unidentified
Half mast
for a god
for a belief
Half mast
for surviving
dreams
(From Scarf Dancer, available at Amazon.com)